Mr. Wobert

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June 2011

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A Preview

Here is the first chapter of my next novel I’m working on. Hopefully this will give you the full picture of the story that my editor’s choice novel “One Day, Forty Nights” gave you. Remember, this is a work in progress. But on that note, I’m open to suggestions.

Chapter One: A Little Girl Amongst the Violence

I didn’t really know how to start this. I was never the writing type; I was more of an action kind of girl. I thought about starting with what his happening around me today, but these are dark times. But then I got to thinking, I should start at the beginning for those were the real dark times.

            I don’t have many memories of my childhood. Many of them have been repressed, forgotten, and banished into a hiding place somewhere inside my troubled soul. That is where they all go. They go into that deep, dark, locked away lair where the running through darken alleys, the restless and petrified nights, the images of splattered blood, the dismembered and decapitated bodies, and all the fear I had did reside. Calling my younger years something of a “rough childhood” would be an understatement to say the least. The only fond memories I do have of it are of my mother. She raised me the best she could; even with the hellish and dark life she chose. I can almost remember her nowadays. It seems like so long ago when she was with me last. I can still remember the night I finally came to grasp her plight.

            It was a stormy night if I remember it correctly. I was six – or maybe I was nine – at the time. Either way, I was just a mere little girl in a galaxy full of them. I wasn’t a princess in some castle on a heavenly, blissful planet somewhere, waiting for my prince to come sweep me off my feet. Nor was I a little girl that resided in the gutters of rock of tyranny. I was just a little girl, trying to find my rightful place in this universe. At the time, my place was usually at my mother’s left side; while she held her rapier tightly against her right. I never could understand why she carried that blade with her at all times when I was young. She’d never let me touch its shiny metal – it looked so pretty to me at the time. I didn’t know how dangerous and powerful it truly was.

            There I was: curled up in the tiniest ball possible in the bed of a cheap motel room. I clutched my dolly with an unbreakable grip. I tried to sleep, but every clash of lightning and the following roar of thunder would startle me awake. I was such a scared little girl at the time. Mother couldn’t – wouldn’t – sleep either that night. Most nights, I’d be in her arms, cradled like a baby; not that night however. It was one of the few nights I wasn’t in her arms. It was one of the worst nights. It was one of the bloody nights.

            A flash of lightning lit up the room for an instant. At the foot of the bed, my mother sat silently in the dark. Her back was to me. She sat in the direction of the lone door of the room. She was like a statue made of stone. Other than the door, a small window in the wall was the only accessible entrance to our room. There was another flash of lightning. The howl of the following thunder rumbled the room and stirred me again from my delicate, light slumber. I sobbed out softly, showing my disliking and fear of the storm outside.

            “Mama?” I whimpered out from under the sheets, trying not to cry.

            She answered me in usual comforting voice before turning her head around to show me her kind face. “What is it baby?”

            When I looked into my mother’s face, especially those kind eyes of hers, I immediately felt safer. It was like looking up at an angel and having her aura instantly cure me of my fear. She pushed the brown locks of her hair out of her face and gave me a small smile. Her smile could freeze the fieriest of rages, and warm the coldest hearts. I always felt better when she smiled at me. Slowly she climbed out of her chair and crawled across the bed on her hands and knees. She let out a soft giggle as she sat down next to me. I immediately shifted up against her side. She kissed the top of my forehead as I barely peeked my head out from under the blanket.

            “It’s alright my princess,” she cooed into my ear. “It is only thunder.”

            “But mama, I…I hate the thunder,” I whimpered as I hid under the sheets with only the top of my head exposed.

            “I know you do sweetie, I know.”

            Outside the room and down the hallway, a door opened. Footsteps began to echo through the narrow corridor of the motel. My mother’s eyebrows twitched as her ears picked up the approaching footsteps. She looked over at the door with a look of concern growing across her angel-like face. The footsteps grew louder and louder. Mom’s frame grew stiff. Footsteps again; right outside the door. Silence – horrific silence – followed. I whimpered out in fright. Mom instantly placed her hand over my mouth to keep me from whimpering out more. Almost immediately, there was a rattle at the door.

            “Quickly baby, under the bed,” my mother whispered as she pulled me out from under the sheets.

            She pulled up the sheets along the side of the bed. I scurried under it – she almost stuffed me under. I squirmed all I could until I was finally under the bed. A thunderous knock came from the door. Mom froze. I froze – not moving a single muscle – and tried to hold back the tears that swelled in my eyes. My mother slowly and silently took my doll from the top of the bed and slid it to me. I needed my doll, but she wouldn’t help stop my tears. Mom swiftly moved to the side of the door and parted her cloak open. The gleam from her sword blinded my eyes for a sec.

            “Crystalline, we know you are in there you fucking whore!” a scratchy voice came from the other side of the door.

            My mother didn’t say a word. I held back my tears the best I could. A large bang came from the door. My mother jumped back from the wall as another bang rattled the door. She readied herself for whatever wanted to come through that door. I was on the verge of crying, clutching my dolly tightly. My mom’s head turned to me, and her soothing eyes took their affect on me. I looked right back through my squinting eyes and tears. Somehow, everything was going to be okay; I just knew it.

            “It’s going to be alright baby. It always is…”

            Suddenly, the window shattered into a million pieces. Glass flew to all corners of the room and caused my mother to cover her face. Some even found its way under the bed in front of me. A large piece slid across the floor and came to a stop in front of me. It gave me the reflection of the action above me. I hadn’t seen what came through the window, but my eyes grew wide with fright when I looked onto the piece of glass.

            “Time to die bitch!” a crisp, deep voice filled the air.

            I saw him. A large, ugly alien, wearing only black, had come through the window. Before my mother had anytime to react, he dashed forward and threw her against the wall. Mom tried her best to push the assassin away, but he easily overpowered her. His clawed hands slipped through her guard and clutched her throat. He growled into her face and spew saliva across her cheeks. Mom didn’t like that. She ran her hand across his cheek and scratched at him. He tightened his grip around her throat. She squirmed against the wall, and started struggling to break the hold of his large hands around her neck. He laughed at her futile struggles and raised her higher on the wall. My mother gasped for breath, but the assassin’s claws were so tight. No air entered her windpipe. Her face grew red with her struggles becoming more and more desperate.

            My mother’s flailing legs kicked against the man’s thighs. He laughed more. I couldn’t hold it back; I screamed. He looked to the bed and then gave my mom a slap across the face. He let go of her throat and threw her down to the floor. She landed with a thud and clutched at her throat. She gasped for air, inhaling heavily, and tried to pick herself up. The man raised her to her feet by her brown hair. She groaned out in pain as he tugged on her hair and then slapped her across the face again. Her head whipped back from the slap and she fell to her knees. Blood started to trickle out from her lip. She caressed the reddening blemish her cheek. Mom was getting angry.

            The assassin growled in a low voice. “Come on you stupid bitch! I thought you were going to put up something that resembled a fight. I guess you are just a dumb, stupid whore like my boss –”

            His voice went silent while my mother knelt in front of him.

            “If you are going to kill someone, you better do it. It’s no good standing above them talking about it when they have can hack off your little prick in two seconds,” my mother said as she twisted her blade that was firmly in the assassin’s pelvis.

            “Why… you… little…”

            “Now get the fuck away from me you scumball!” she shouted before slashed her blade down into his groin.

            The assassin gasped for air as mother’s sword cut through him easily. He toppled over with a thump that shook the floor under me. Blood began to spill from the gash across his lower regions. His eyes – bitter and black – locked onto my wide, fright-filled eyes. He groaned out his last breath and went still. A steady stream of thick, red blood spread out from him. It pooled underneath him and spread across the wooden tiled floor. Sobs came from under the bed as the red tide crept toward me.

            My mother stepped over the body and got down to eye level with me. She grabbed a hold of my arm and carefully pulled me toward her; also made sure to pull me away from the blood. Tears were streaming down my face when I rolled out from under the bed. I clutched my doll tighter in my hands. It was surprising her head hadn’t fallen off from how many times I’ve squeezed her to death. My mother looked down at me with her soft eyes. Her hands slowly slid up my face and ran through my hair.

            “It’s alright hon; everything is alright…,” she said in her comforting tone.

            “Mommy, I’m scared…” I lightly sobbed in her arms.

            “Don’t cry baby; it’s all over. It’s all over.” My mother said after she wrapped her arms around me.

            I continued to sob and trembled. “Mommy?”

            “It’s alright princ–” she started.

            Before my mom could finish, she was cut off by the sudden shattering of the door. The door splintered into dozens of wood chunks and revealed two other large, ugly aliens. Their long, green snouts stuck out at least a foot, and both had an evil grin that revealed a row of yellow teeth. They rushed into the room with their pistols drawn. My mom spun me around in her arms to position me behind her. The two men growled – drool was seeping from their jaws – with their pistols aimed at us. My mother stands up with her bloodied blade held out in front of her. I wrapped my arms around her waist, scared to death that this was the end.

            Without warning, laser blasts tore through both side walls of the room. My mother dove to the ground and dragged me down under her. I held onto her tight; however, lost my grip on my doll. Chips of paint from the wall rained down onto us. The blasts screamed over us and smashed into the two men. They were ripped apart by the crossfire of blaster bolts that easily cut through their flesh. The male on the left collapsed onto the bed, while the other slammed back against the wall. Green blood splattered around the room in all directions. It was a sickening sight.

            Quickly, two cloaked men, all in white, stormed into the room. My mother raised her sword to attack, but she then saw the face of one of the men; she knew him. He bowed his head in respect. He was a young man with rather large arms. His hands were huge, and his skin looked like tan leather. The other man bowed his head as he reloaded his weapon, and then he ran back into the hallway. Mom scooped me up into her arms and grabbed what she had backed in a bag. She carried me over to the dresser and grabbed my small backpack. I cried out and reached out for my doll, which was lying in a pool of blood, but a burst of gunfire from the hallway silenced me. Tears streamed from my eyes; I knew my doll was getting left behind. My only friend – the one who was with me through all those nights – was left behind.

            “Your highness, we have to get you out of here,” the man declared and reloaded his weapon as the other man returned.

            “Sir, the speeder is out front, but there are still enemy units all over the sector.”

            “Mack, tell the others to clear the stairs. We need to get out of here before we attract any more attention.”

            “Corporal Carl, lead the way. We are in your hands,” my mom answered and held me close.

            Two more men in cloaks appeared at the door to join the other one. The corporal gave them a hand signal, and the three of them moved back into the hallway. My mother took out a small pistol from her bag and slowly followed Carl out of the room. She ushered me forward, holding me close with her free arm. We moved down the hallway, trying to be as quiet as possible. Two of the men waited at the stairwell and made sure the path was clear ahead for us. Our group slowly started down the stairs, with Carl and Mack leading the way.

            “Where is the Aurora?” my mother softly spoke.

            “She is docked at the docking bay a few streets over. She’s ready for her maiden voyage. She’ll suit you well madam,” Carl whispered back as we entered the lobby of the motel.

            I could see through the front glass doors and saw a small black speeder pull up. The two other men took point and ran across the lobby to met the speeder outside. We quickly started to run for the speeder, but suddenly gunfire erupted in the street. The two men took cover and returned fire to an enemy we could not see. My mom pulled me and ordered me to duck down behind a couch. I did what I was told, still holding her arm. A rocket slammed into the side of the speeder, causing the floor to shake under my feet. I tightened my grip on my mom’s arm when the screams filled my ears. The rocket had taken out the speeder and the two men that were with Carl and Mack.

            “Damn-it! Out the back! Out the back!” Carl shouted to my mom and Mack.

            My mother lifted me up to my feet and we took off running down the main hall. Mack took point ahead of us, and Carl stayed right behind us, firing toward the main entrance of the motel. Carl barked into his com-link requesting new orders, but only received static. Mack stormed into the kitchen. The staff ran out into the lobby. Gunfire flew over our heads as two uniformed soldiers fired at us. Carl dove behind a pillar and returned fire. The exchange of blaster fire between them was so intense; many of the staff members were caught in the firefight.

            Shots screamed past me and caused me to scream out in horror. My mom fired off a few shots from her pistol and pushed me into the kitchen. Mack kicked open the door leading to the back alley and went out to check if the way was clear. My mom stopped for a moment and knelt down in front of me. She slowly pushed my hair out of my face and looked down into my bloodshot eyes. I was shaking; I couldn’t stop even if I wanted to. Small streams of dried up tears rested on my red cheeks. My mother cracked a smile while she wiped away my tears.

            “It’s going to be alright baby,” my mother finally spoke as she rubbed my cheek. “You have to be strong for me okay?”

            “Mommy, I’m scared…,” I gasped in between sobs.

            “I know baby, I know you are. I’m scared too. It’s going to get better, I promise.” She spoke in her comforting voice.

            “I want daddy…”

            “We’ll find daddy baby. We’ll find him with our new home,” she said, assuring me.

            More gunfire echoed from the lobby; it was closer and louder than before.

            “Home?”

            “Yeah baby, a new home. No more running, no more hiding. A place we can call home,” She said and hugged me. “I know you have waited for so long to have a home darling. We have one that you will love…”

            I took in some deep breathes, and my shaking slowed.

            “That’s my girl… be strong for mommy now.”

            “I love you mommy,” I squeaked out in a whisper.

            “I love–”

            Before my mom could finish telling me she loved me, the kitchen was filled with gunfire. I immediately screamed out in terror. My scream echoed off the metal cabinets and mixed with the shrieks of blaster fire. My mom shouted to me to get down, but I was petrified. The blaster bolts tore through the metal cabinets all around me, and ricocheted off the countless pots and pans dangling above me. My mom frantically fired her pistol in the direction of the incoming blasts. The pots and pans started toppling down around me.

            “Get down baby!” Mom yelled at me in fright.

            Suddenly Carl came sliding out of no where and knocked me off my feet. He wrapped his muscular arms around me and pulled me down to the cold tile floor. Mack returned from the alley and started firing. The exchange of gunfire was intense. A large boiling pot took a hit and came crashing down. Carl rolled us out of the way just before it landed with a thud. Loud growls came from outside the kitchen as the gunfire was suddenly silenced.

            Carl ordered Mack to take point, and we quickly rushed into the back alley. My mom was right behind him. Carl lifted me to my feet and led me slowly into the dark alley. He held onto my hand tight – he probably could crush it easily. I did my best not to cry, but it was a struggle. My chest was in so much pain from the gasping for breath. Mack and my mom marched quickly down the alley, weaving through the trash cans and dumpsters. Trash littered the ground; it made it difficult for my little feet. It was such a filthy place.

            Mack went ahead of my mom at the front of the alley. He moved up cautiously and knelt down next to a trash can. He scanned the windows and catwalks of the adjacent buildings and then gave the sign for the rest of us to move up. My mom quickly joined him by the trash can. Carl and I went to join them. A rocket screamed from a window. It skidded against the curb and flew out of control into the alley, just missing Mack and my mom. I screamed out as it slammed into concrete wall near us. The explosion rattled the alley and caused me to trip. The wall came crumbling down in front of us. More gunfire erupted on the street. My path to mom was blocked.

            “Baby! Baby! Are you alright?” my mom shouted from the other side of the rubble as the gunfire had subsided again.

            “Mommy!” I shrieked out in between coughs while standing in a cloud of dust.

            “I’m here baby, it’s alright!” she shouted back. “Carl, are you still there?”

            “Yeah… yeah I’m here…,” he answered while hacking. “We’re alright. Mack, take the princess and meet up with the rest of the squad. I’ll take the little girl and meet you at the ship. Get her out of here now!”

            “Yes sir.”

            “Mommy? Mommy!”

            “Stay with Carl baby. Everything will be alright. Shit, more of them are coming. Carl! Keep her safe. We’ll be back together soon baby. I promise,” she said before their footsteps echoed off the walls.

            “Mommy! Mommy!”

            I called out for my mom as Carl grabbed one of my arms and pulled me away. She didn’t answer me; for the first time I could remember, she didn’t answer me. She was always there for me, always had me by her side. She left me, just like I had left my doll. The world grew much scarier now. I was frightened.

            “It’s going to be ok girl. It’s going to be ok… It’s going to be ok…,” Carl repeats over and over he while tried to calm me down and pull me away from the rubble.

            “Mommy!” I continued to cry out.

            “It’s going to be ok girl…”

            I wouldn’t budge from the spot though. He tried and tried to get me to move, but all I did was cry and shout for mom.

            “Mommy! Come back for me! Mom!”

            He finally picked me up and started to carry me. I screamed and struggled in his arms, but it was no good; he easily overpowered me. I was just a squirming doll in his bulky arms. I left a trail of tears behind us as he ran with me in his arms. My howls bounced off the brink that was around us. I cried with all the air I had in my lungs as he carried me along.

            We navigated the labyrinth of alleyways until they led us to a side street. Carl set me aside him, behind a parked speeder, and tried his best to calm me down again. He didn’t do a very good job. Tears continued to stream down my cheeks and I stomped my foot in front of him during my tantrum. I couldn’t scream out, even though I wanted to. All I could do was stamp my feet and show all the fright and anguish I was feeling in my face. Suddenly Carl’s hand covered my mouth.         

            A speeder came to a screeching halt near us. It flipped around and pulled up a few yards away from us to the sidewalk. Three men dressed like the assassins earlier stepped out. I instantly stopped crying and went silent. My straining, bloodshot eyes locked onto me. Carl lifted up his rifle and aimed it toward the group. They started checking their weapons while someone still inside the speeder barked out orders. I couldn’t hear anything they said, but it looked like Carl was tuned in on the conversation. Slowly, the group departed in different directions, and the speeder drove off. One of them marched down the alley we were just in, and the two others went different directions down the sidewalk.

            “Stay still girl,” He whispered and let go of me. “I’ll be right back.”

            “Carl?” I whimpered softly.

            He put his finger to his lips and gave me the sign to hush. He then crept out from behind the parked speeder in a crouching stance. He stayed in the shadows as one of the assassins stood by a trash can. The assassin stood there, lighting up a cigarette. He took a long deep puff from it. Mom had always said cigarettes were bad for you; always lead to bad luck. Carl slowly crept up behind the man and pulled a small knife from his belt. He raised the knife into the air and prepared to strike. The blade shined from the street lamp above; it blinded me for an instant. There was a splatter of blood and a muffled groan. I turned away.

            When I looked back, Carl had grabbed the man by his neck was squeezing it as tight as he could. The man tried to scream, but Carl was slamming the knife into the man’s chest. Again and again the knife sliced through the man’s flesh. Blood splattered with each strike. The man kicked and struggled, but his futile struggles weakened with each thrust. Soon, his body went limp and slipped from Carl’s grasp. It flopped onto the sidewalk in a bloody heap. I watched as Carl stood above the man for a moment. He sighed and looked down at the blood on his hands. I have seen mom slice up bad guys with her sword many a times before, but this time was different. It was more personal – more intimate – with a knife than it is with a swing of a sword. You had to get in very close. I know now it’s the best way to keep things quiet – quiet but messy too.

            Suddenly, out of the alley, another one of the assassins came charging out. He tackled Carl and threw him into a parked speeder. Carl’s rifle fell to the ground. The men tussled, grappled, and wrestled with each other. The both of them tried to over power the other. Carl lunged forward with the knife, but a quick punch from assassin sent the knife flying. Both men toppled over onto the sidewalk. The knife ended up skidding to a stop right next to me.

            They brawled with each other like a pair of fighting dogs. The assassin connected with a powerful punch to Carl’s jaw. The punch caused them to break apart next to me. The assassin hopped to his feet first and gave Carl a swift kick to the face. Carl let out a groan and fell back to the ground. The assassin chuckled to himself as he pulled out his pistol and took aim.

            I had picked up the dagger while they were both tussling around on the ground. Its rubber grip felt soft against my fingers. It didn’t feel heavy at all in my grasp. Strangely enough, it didn’t feel foreign to me. I looked upward at the assassin while he pointed down his pistol down at Carl. Not even thinking, I slammed the knife into the back of the man’s knee. He let out a howl that sent chills down my spine. Carl pulled his spare weapon and fired on the man. The shots sent him backward. The man’s blood squirted down onto us as he flopped onto the parked speeder, dead. Carl slowly lifted himself up and then looked down to me. Blood had found its way onto my cheeks, into my hair, and across the front of my dress. A smile slowly grew across his face as he gently took the knife from my hand.

            “Thanks a lot girl,” he said and patted me on my shoulder.

            I kind of smiled back; I had done well.

            After picking up his firearm, he took my hand in his again. We quickly made our way down the street and into another alley near the spaceport. Carl told me to wait by a trashcan for a moment. I did as I was told. I watched as he scouted ahead. At the end of the alley was the back entrance to the spaceport. There were two guards standing at the doors. Both of them stood smoking cigarettes and holding their rifles in their hands. Carl quietly returned to me and knelt down beside me.

            “Alright hon. We are going to sit here for a couple of moments and wait for them to head off on a patrol,” He declared and sat down next to me.

            I nodded as I curled up next to him. I was shivering a little; both from fear and the cooling night air. He looked down at me, gazed over me, and then slid his arm over my shoulders. He pulled me close. I instantly felt his warm frame against mine. I didn’t know him at all – it was the closest I had really gotten to anybody other than my mother. I didn’t know why at the time, but I felt like I could trust him – it was something I just sensed. There was good in him under that rough skin; I just knew it. We waited in silence; it felt like it lasted forever. I couldn’t take it any longer.

            “Carl? What’s the ship like?” I softly whimpered.

            “Well hon, it’s a ship that is top of the line. It has got everything you and your mom could ever ask for. Trust me; we built you a great ship,” Carl stated proudly.

            “Why?”

            “What do you mean why?”

            “Why a ship?”

            “Because your mom wanted something to keep her mobile and safe,” he answered. “It’s going to be a new home for you two. You won’t have to worry about finding places to sleep again.”

            “Why?”

            “Because you and your mom are very special.” Carl replied.

            “Why?”

            “Because you two are probably the last hope for this galaxy.”

            “Why?”

            “Because evil lurks on every planet and its time has come to be stopped,” He answered while he watched the guards.

            “Why?”

            “Because people are easily corrupted and they haven’t been challenged to do good for a long time. Evil has squashed hope for way too long,” he groaned in disgust. “It’s time to set things right.”

            “Why?”

            “Because hope has been missing for a long time, but now, we have a new hope,” He assured me.

            “Why?”

            “Because your mother is truly an angel.”

            “Why?” I said again.

            “Damn girl, you are just–” Carl started before blaster fire screamed past us.

            I let out a yelp as blaster bolts deflect off the trashcans and into the walls. Carl leaned out and returned fire. The two guards had heard us and opened fire on our position. I crawled into the smallest ball possible next to Carl. He fired a wave of shots, but suddenly he stopped. He began barking out in anger as his weapon was jammed. I peered over the trash can and saw the two men running toward us. Carl slapped at the side of his weapon, trying to get it to respond. Another pair of men came around the corner and started firing. Carl scampered back next to me for cover. He slammed the gun against the concrete wall, and still it didn’t respond.  A small ball rolled to a stop next to me. My eyes grew wide with fright.

            Carl pulled me away from the trash can and pushed us over to another. The ball exploded with a giant flash and the alley was engulfed with a blue fire. Carl rolled us over and shielded me from the blast. Garbage went flying as the force of the explosion threw us against the wall. I rolled out of Carl’s grasp and looked up into the barrel of a rifle. I wanted to scream, but I was frozen in fright. The man laughed and cocked his weapon. Carl’s foot quickly swung up and kicked the gun out of the man’s hands.

            With another kick, Carl knocked the man to the ground and slammed the barrel of his own rifle onto the man’s chest. Carl pulled back on the trigger to shot him, but the weapon only responded with a click. The weapon was still jammed; Carl growled out in agony. He cursed the weapon before the man punched it out of Carl’s hand. The two men started to tussle. I scampered toward a waste container that had been knocked over. I cowered in fear as the two men fought in front of me. Another one of the guards came up to the two. He cocked his weapon. Instantly, Carl and the man stopped wrestling with each other and looked over to the weapon pointed at them. The guard grinned and opened fire on them both.

            Carl rolled over and pulled the man on top of him; he used him as a shield. I let out another wailed out as I watched the blaster bolts tear into the man. Blood gushed with each bolt that cut through his body. The man was dead in seconds as there wasn’t much left as the weapon’s clip was emptied. Carl pushed the shot-up body into the other guard and scampered away. He yelped out in pain as a bolt ripped through his shoulder before he made it to the cover of a ruined speeder. He pulled out his pistol and fired a few blind shots in the direction of the group.

            Carl leaned out to have a more accurate shot at the guards, but another blaster bolt smacked into his chest. He cried out in pain and flopped backward into a puddle. The muddy water splashed onto me – as did some of his blood. His pistol fell from his hand. The guards quickly ran over to him. One of them gave Carl a swift boot to his side and jammed his weapon into Carl’s face. The other kicked away his pistol; it skidded through the water and stopped a few feet away from me

            “Where’s the girl?” the guard shouted down to Carl.

            I curled up inside the container as tight as I could. I tried to make myself as small as possible in the dark. The man asked again, and all Carl did was groan out in pain. The other guard walked up behind Carl and kicked Carl’s back. Carl spat up at them. The guard that talked demanded to know where I was. Carl wouldn’t tell him. The man cocked his weapon; his patience was running thin. I had to do something. I mustered all the strength I could. I leaned out from the shadows to face the fear. My hands gripped the handle; I lifted the gun into the air. My arms shook; I aimed the weapon unsteadily. My fingers slide over the trigger and pulled back on it.

            I fired one shot toward the two men. The recoil from the pistol was a shock to my hands; it was so violent the pistol was propelled backwards out of my hands. The shot tore through the neck of the talking guard and threw him against the wall. His finger must have been on the trigger because his weapon misfired doing his fall. The other guard took hits from his partner’s weapon. He fell over dead instantly. The other guard collapsed to the ground, grasping at his neck. He twitched on the ground for a moment as the blood seeped from the wound across his throat. I crawled over to Carl after he went still. I stayed kneeling down beside him as he looked up to me and took my hand in his.

            “Damn good shooting girl…,” he chuckled softly with blood oozing from his lip. “Damn good shooting…”

            Footsteps started to echo through the alley. I looked up and over to the dark shadows that dashed toward us. My heart began to pound in my chest. Flashes of dim light reflected off their weapons. Carl groaned out under me and reached for the pistol. He unsteadily held the weapon into the air and aimed it toward the shadows. He pulled me behind him as he propped himself up against a box. He was ready to take a stand to protect me. He might have been even ready to die for me – ready to die for a little girl he didn’t even know. One of their faces became visible to me as they approached. Carl soothed a sigh of relief. My heart immediately stopped its violent pounding when my mother’s face came into view.

            “Mommy!”

            She ran up to me with tears in her eyes and pulled me into her arms. Her arms wrapped around me so tightly. She began ravaging my cheeks with kisses. Her lips pecked me so hard her lipstick smeared all over them. She pushed the strands of dirty, hair out of my face and gave me a smile that was ear to ear. After one last kiss on the cheek, she took my hand and we quickly ran down the alley. I looked back to Carl as we ran down the alley. He winked at me as they lifted him onto a stretcher. He was going to be okay.

            My mom guided me through the spaceport and into the docking bay. My eyes grew wide as I saw our new home for the first time. The light shined off the freshly polished hull. It was almost like looking into a set of mirrors. The large engines on her tail hummed and dimly lit the docking bay a hazy blue. As we approached the ship, something started to hiss. I hopped back as a large pair of doors opened wide. Amongst the steam, I looked toward the two figures standing inside.

            “What kept you?” a woman’s voice called out to us.

            “Oh you know the usual. Bombs, assassins, and guards,” my mom chuckled. “Hopefully we’ll be leaving those behind us.”

            “I see. Well, now you are trading up to fighters and battleships.” The woman returned an uneasy laugh.

            “Right you are. Good to see you too Jessie.”

            “Good to see you too Crystal.”  

            “Honey, meet my sister: Captain Jessie Holden.”

            The woman finally stepped forward, away from the steam, so I could see her. She wasn’t much older than my mom from her appearance. Her black hair was short and rested gently on her shoulders. She stood up straight and wore an orderly uniform much like an officer.

            “You’re my mom’s sister?” I slowly crept forward.

            “Well, not her literal sister, but a sister in arms,” she answered with a smile.

            I noticed next to her was a small boy. His long orange hair swirled around his head like a flame. Most of it covered his face until he pushed it off his face. He was very young, probably the same age of me. My eyes gazed up to his, and our eyes were instantly locked. He cowered behind Jessie; he must have been shy. I couldn’t look away from him. I was drawn to his hair and face; it was nothing like I had seen before.

            “Oh my, what is wrong with me,” Jessie giggled. “Your majesty, let me introduce our other young guest; Mikela.”

            “Umm… hi…,” Mikela softly said.

            “I figured young Nysa could use a playmate on board,” Jessie said in a sweet voice. “Hopefully she likes him.”

            “Uh, hi…” After a second or two of silence, I finally replied.

            “Hee-hee, it looks like my little princess has herself a little prince to be with,” my mother laughed.

            I tried to speak again, but all I could muster was a happy sigh. I was such a little girl back then. It was as if I was love struck with a schoolboy crush right off the bat. I was just awestruck by his curly, locks of flame. I had never seen such a cute boy – I had been sheltered by my mom, and I have never met a lot of kids. This was my first real experience with a boy; especially a cute one. My mother chuckled once more and ushered me into the docking bay. I followed my mother as the woman lead us up a ramp and into a hallway. The hallway was brightly lit, the carpet was freshly vacuumed, and the walls were freshly painted. The air was cool and crisp as it was recycled through the ship. She sure was a marvel.

            “Mikela, how about you take Nysa for a tour of the ship? I’m sure she’d appreciate it,” Jessie softly ordered.

            “Ummm… No problem,” He replied and took my hand.

            We started down the hallway, leaving Jessie and my mom to head off to the command deck and the bridge. We wandered through the ship for a bit before we stopped in the mess hall. The chairs and tables were stacked around the hall. Much of the open kitchen was covered in protective plastic, waiting to be used. Mikela asked me if I wanted anything, and I admitted I was a bit hungry. He quickly ran to the back of the kitchen and started to prepare me a small salad. I giggled and watched him juggle the various fruits and vegetables. He had a knack for cooking; even when he was that young. My eyes continued their stare at him, entranced by him. I had a real crush on him.

            Minutes turned to hours, hours turned to days, and days turned to years. Living on the ship – I soon learned her name: the Aurora – was closest thing to I home I had at the time. It took a while to get used to the crew and to life on a ship, but within the year, I felt right at home. I hadn’t seen my mother that happy – that full of joy – ever before. She smiled more, she had fun more, and she wasn’t as stressed out. There wasn’t as much pain on that ship. Everything was almost perfect. The only thing that was missing was dad. I would keep asking mom about him, and she’d keep telling me that we would find him. We went from one system to another, doing my mother’s biding, and all the time, we were looking for him. But we never found him.

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Cravings amongst Tears

Every night I lay amongst the stars,

Wishing you were here instead of on Mars.

My slumber is never smooth, I blame the tears,

For I live under the shroud of darkness and fear.

Weeping as I do into the lone pillow,

I crave sweet romance under a willow.

 

But then I dream of you like I did last night,

And all the pain I feel vanishes from sight.

It always starts with me pushing the chair from your cheek

So I can gaze into your eyes which are so beautiful and sleek.

Instantly we are brought together by our lips;

Yours make up a sweet elixir that I beg for a sip.

 

Our tongues dance in an erotic twirl,

Back and forth, side by side, up and down in a tilt-a-whirl.

My hands glide over the skin of your shoulders and back,

On any other occasion I would receive a smack.

The fear in me is over-whelming as I massage your breast,

But oh god, how I do crave to caress the rest.

 

Your breaths spike between gasps and moans,

Yet our lips remained locked; we are in the erotic zone.

My hands claw at your back as if weapons of mass destruction,

But they are my scimitars of exotic seduction.

Our lips separate, but my kisses are nowhere near done.

Your entire form will feel my lips before the ending of our fun.

 

I take control of you, dominate you,

Devouring the right spot with the amazing view.

Up over your stomach and bosom is quite the flight

For our eyes to lock and experience different sights.

That is it my love, fall under my influence.

You know I’m trustworthy; there is no imprudence.

 

But alas you are just an angel of my dreams;

A figment of my imagination for my depression to screen.

I always awaken to an empty spot

Next to me on my lonely but cozy cot.

So yet again I remain, destined to fight,

Searching for you with all my might,

Praying for my goddess to remove my aching plight.

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The Mirror

The alarm triggers its usual annoying tone at the exact time it has been set to for eternity. It is always the same blaring noise. It always seemed to be at the precise moment in time when it was most inconvenient for me. The buzzer would continually interrupt some fantasy I was living whilst in a dream. I could have been in the grasp of a handsome white knight. Perhaps my prince-charming had finally conquered the evil king and rescued me, the entrapped princess. None of that matters now though. The bothersome tone disrupts my slumber. There is a bright side to the agonist clamor though. It means my lover awakens.

            It doesn’t matter which side either of us fell asleep on; our eyes always open to each other’s face. My eyes flutter open to his. It is as if I can look deep into his eyes and see his soul. Oh my how sweet and innocent I feel when I look deep into his orbs. The blueness of his eyes is like catching a glimpse at the magnificent ocean, the clear pristine water at the beach perhaps, at the perfect moment of relaxation and romance. How wonderful it feels when he gazes upon me. We are just a couple of young lovebirds with our souls entwined in bliss. It is his eyes that attract me to him. I adore those perfect, passionate, loving eyes of his. Oh James, I love you.

            I watch as he stirs and stretches out in the bed. He then leans in and gives me a light kiss on the cheek. His lips were smooth and warm against my delicate skin. We exchange smiles before he slides out from under the sheets, hops off the bed, and makes his way to the bathroom. His smooth rear sways back and forth as he walks. I still can’t believe he got his backside waxed for me. It is a sacrifice that must have been difficult for him to do. He has always said he preferred the natural look, but I just love the feel of hairless skin. My lovely form follows him into the bathroom. I have always believed I am a stunning and attractive girl.

            I step into the bathroom, and already his hands are on my form. He always wants to play in the mornings. His hands slide over the silk nightie that tightly hugs my curves. I must admit, his hands always feel wonderful when they slide across the silk of my nightwear. I let out a giggle and grind my rear back against his pelvis. He wants to have me right there in the bathroom, but he can’t have me today. I thrust my rear backward hard, and pull it back just enough to give us space. I watch his face in the mirror. His eyes peer toward me, and I can read the confused expression over his face. His eyes do not look away from me, and I get a sense he wants affection so bad, but he can’t. I wiggle out of his grasp. My index finger shakes back and forth at him, signaling no. He lets out a sigh in defeat before walking out. I look at myself reflected in the mirror for a moment before my frame leaves the view of the mirror. I, however, continue to stare at the mirror. A vacant, expressionless, empty image reflects back at me. I am just a hollow aura of my true self.

            I know there is nothing wrong with the mirror. It shines brilliantly as ever. Its smooth, glossy finish reflects every detail with such clarity. Even with a sparkling of dried droplets of water on the mirror’s surface, it does not hinder in its effort to reflect. I can even see the old stains of chipping paint on the walls around the bathroom. That was a great day. It was the first day we had settled into this place. We were so happy at the time; so in love. Those were the best of times.

 

            “Do you like it?” James said to me while he admired at his handiwork.

            I stepped up behind him and wrapped my arms around his chest, just under his armpits. We swayed back and forth for a moment while my eyes took in the scene. Each tile had been delicately placed in the small shower by the former owners of this apartment. It could have been a master craftsman that had spent hours of work to make his bathroom perfect. And there I stood, looking at the wonderful tiled shower with cheap, pink paint all around it. “Think you went a little overboard with the paint?”

            “Hey, if my girl’s favorite color is pink, then I’m going to give her the pinkest bathroom in all the land,” he proudly replied.

            “Hmmm…. Does that mean I can have the living room pink?”

            “Not a chance.”

            “Thought so.” I giggled. “What color of pink is that?”

            “It’s called unspoken love….”

            I gently kissed his neck. “I love it.”

            “Glad to hear it.” He whispered as he slowly spun around in my arms to face me.

            Our eyes instantly locked onto each other’s. Even with the pink walls surrounding us in rose light, his eyes were still an amazing blue. My hands slid down from his under his arms and gently coiled around his waist and hips. The paint bucket and brush dropped behind me with an echoing clank. He smiled and gently pressed his lips to mine. I melted into his kiss and into his arms when they enveloped around me. Our bodies became pressed together in perfect unison. His hands slid up and down my back as we shared kiss after kiss after kiss. I didn’t want our lips to break apart. Suddenly, his hands caressed my bottom, and lifted me off the tile floor. I gasped in surprise and on instinct wrapped my legs around his hips. He murmured in response, and then he gently stepped back into the shower. I kissed him again; much stronger and passionately that time. He jostled me against the wall, and turned on the showerhead.  The water began to drench us.

            “What are you doing?” I said in a soft voice, directly to his ear, as I kissed his neck.

            “I’ve always wanted to kiss you in the rain,” he cooed into my ear. “Figured this was as best of time as any.”

            “How sweet…”

 

            That is a good memory. I snap out of my trance and return to the sight of me staring at the mirror. My hands gently move across my face as they apply make-up to my skin. The tank top I have put on hugs my chest and pushes up my cleavage. The short shorts, with the words “sexy” across the back, make my rear firmer than it is. I have never had a great butt in my opinion. I think my breasts are my best feature. Compared to the other girls in our apartment complex, I am the only one that isn’t full of plastic. None of that is a concern to James though. It doesn’t matter how I look or what I do to change my appearance. I am always an angel in his eyes. Even when things are rough, I never fall from my pedestal James has planted me on.

            I fix up my hair in a ponytail before leaving the bathroom. That’s when I see the bed has been made by me. The silk sheets have been pulled up, and the thick blanket has been stretched across the whole surface. James never notices how I would make the bed on days like this. I take great care in making the bed in my special way on these days. James never sees it. He is dressed and in the kitchenette before I make the bed. He never notices anything is out of the ordinary. He always notices everything that is about me and tries to pamper me, or he used to, but now, he never sees what is important to me.

            I find James at the table, reading away at his newspaper. I am seated at the other end of the table, working on a bowl of cereal. The clanking that comes from the spoon sliding across the bottom of the bowl echoes through the room. The only response is the crinkle of the newspaper. He concentrates on the business section for a long while before he moves onto the sports section. My eyes glare down at the front page that has been set aside. My eyes look to read the headlines for the day. For some reason, the characters look different to me. The whole newspaper looks like gibberish to me.

            My eyes just see this:

 

            “Damn, time to head to work.” James says as he puts down his paper.

            “Ok babe. Have a good day at work.” I say with a smile.

            “How about a kiss from my hummingbird?”

            “Sorry hon. Ummm… my lipstick is already on, and I don’t want to mess it up when Cindy and I go out to lunch.”

            “Come on, just a quick peck?”

            I look up into his eyes as he looks down at me. I get a sense that he wants a kiss so bad. I smile and giggle in front of him, but I don’t give him a kiss. He leans in to gives me a kiss, but I playfully push my head aside. He stops for a moment, leaving his head close to mine, before he closes his eyes, and kisses the far back of my jaw – where it meets my neck. He lets off a soft sigh as he holds it for a moment before moving toward the door behind me. His hand touches the handle, and that is when he glances at me. I can see his hurt look. His soft eyes become a rosy red, and his saddened look eats away at me. I should have just given him a kiss.

            He walks out and slams the door shut. My head turns, and I watch the lock turn from the outside. His footsteps echo off the old wooden floorboards as he marches away. I smile and quickly finish my bowl of cereal. As I am rinsing out my bowl, my phone vibrates from the incoming text message. I look down at it, and my eyes grow wide with joy. Christopher’s text reads simply, “I’m on my way over.” I shiver in anticipation before I quickly run back into the bedroom. I watch as the blanket across the bed is pulled away, and the spandex bondage outfit comes into view. I quickly slide out of my tank-top and short shorts. The newfound dominatrix-side within me starts to come out as I carefully buckle the harnesses and the straps of the outfit.

            A smile moves across my face. I remember how I met Christopher. It was a night when James had to stay late at the office, working on some business meeting. I had been growing so lonely with the long nights of James being away from me. When we were first dating, we couldn’t be separated. But as things progressed, James was pulled further and further away from me. James’s career as a stock broker was starting to take off when we got married. He was well on his way to becoming one of the firm’s best advisers. But all the company success had a major flaw. It meant James was putting his job above me. I had to take a backseat to his career. That was not how things should have gone.

            That night, after putting up with the loneliness and lack of attention, I stared to browse the internet. I surfed through the chatrooms of various websites, looking for some sort of attention. The wanting for any kind of interaction was too great from me to handle. After a while, I came across a bondage website. It was a random occurrence – a typo and a mis-click – but I was instantly intrigued. It was such a foreign thought to me. I had been raised like a princess, sheltered from the darkest aspects of life. But the strangeness of the whole idea of being a mistress was a seed never planted within my mind. I was used to being pampered by everyone; especially James. He tried so hard to give me what I needed to be happy. However, he had never given me anything like this. The seed had been planted.

            The thought of being the dominant female, the master in total control, grew. The more I browsed the website, the more fascinated I became. The seed had grown into a tall tree, and I had tasted the forbidden fruit plucked from it. Then, an instant message popped up on the screen from “tapoutslave 69”. He asked me how I would feel about giving him a “good spanking”. I laughed it off, but the thought stewed in my head for a little while. Soon enough, it exploded. The next night, when James had left for a two-day business trip, Christopher came over. He helped me dive deep into the idea. After that, I was buying whips, chains, and every other material for my new lifestyle. I wanted to be the real mistress of power.

            That was a few months ago.

            My mind returns to the present as I pull out my secret bag full of toys. I am still surprised that James hasn’t discovered the bag. He probably would have a heart attack if he sees what is inside. I dump out the contents and watch them spill out onto the bed. Whips, chains, ball-gags, paddles, and other devices spread out in a little pile of torment. I watch while my hands run through the pile. I lift up a green strap-on while thinking of Christopher. It is his favorite toy when I wear it. Christopher is a weird guy, but I love the feeling he gives me. He is completely willing to let me abuse him as I see fit. Oh what a power trip I embark on when I’m with him. It really has helped get me get through the feeling of being abandoned by James. Our once-a-week events are so pleasant; or at least pleasurable for me. Suddenly, a knock comes from the door.

            I quickly throw on a bathrobe and answer the door. My eyes gaze on Christopher as he walks into the apartment. His Tapout t-shirt squeezes his amazing chest and large muscles. He works out every day. His physique is his pride and joy; it is my flesh to control. I coax him over with a devilish smile. He marches over and wraps his arms around me. I am no match for his strength. However, I am his master, and he is the slave.

            “Alright big boy, kneel for me.” I order as I squirm out of his grasp.

            “Yes my mistress.” He says while getting on his hands and knees.

            “Kiss my toes slave. They are rather lonely this morning.”

            Christopher does exactly as he is told. He is completely obedient and subdued to do my bidding. I strap a leash on him while he suckles on my pinkie toe. I then make him bark like a lost puppy. It amuses me that such a strong, large man is on the floor like a mutt. He follows me into the bedroom where the fun really begins. Before long, I have him strapped to the bed posts, naked. I see the expression of pure bliss across his face, and it drives me wild. Momma is going to punish her baby. I place a blindfold over his eyes and gag him. Oh Christopher, you are going to be whipped until you cry tears of joy.

            I am so distracted at the moment; I don’t notice James standing silent and still like stone. There is a tremble in his lower lip, and a tear itching at his eye, wanting to fall. He tries to remain still, but his foot jerks. A floorboard in the doorway creaks. I look up at the door, and my heart goes cold. My eyes lock onto his set of bright blue eyes that are turning bloodshot and filling with tears. I don’t know what to say; I am completely speechless. Christopher has no idea James is standing at the doorway. The silence is unnerving. I swear that I can hear each breath taken. Finally, Christopher breaks the tension when he starts mumbling from the gag. James shakes his head and then runs out of the apartment. I chase after him, but he’s out the front door in a matter of seconds. I want to chase after him, but I can’t.

            The effects of the whole scene start to take effect of me as I stand in the kitchen. My eyes glaze over the outfit I have adorned, and the whip that is in my hand. I know I should be feeling guilty, but at that moment, I’m not. I’m confused. I mean, how dare James just walk-in on me like that. Who knows how long he had been watching. But, on the other hand, what a shock it must have been. Could he have just forgotten to grab his newspaper or maybe something? And then he came home to that. I’m so confused.

            I untie Christopher, and he soon leaves. He wants to start over, but I am too bewildered. I rip off my spandex suit, and put the tank-top and shorts back on. I throw all my gear back in the bag, and toss it into the closet; didn’t even bother hiding it. Emotions run wild within me as I sit on the corner of the bed with my face in my hands. James has been treating me like shit every since he got that damn job at the brokerage. The entire time we have been married, he has been a ghost to me. I am tired of it. I am just a trophy to him now. He has won my heart, even my soul, and now has placed me on the shelf. He thinks he is such a romantic husband, but he’s not.

            But I love him… I love him so much. He has always been good to me. He always put himself ahead of me. He loves me with all his heart. What have I done?

            I wait all day from him to come home, but he never shows. I become more and more worried that he isn’t here. He never was good at handling his emotions. Was he afraid of confronting me? I figure he is with each hour that passes. I try to stay up all night, waiting for him, but it’s no use. I lay down in the bed to fall asleep. It is the first time in a long while James hasn’t been in bed with me. I pull up the blanket with a tear slowly trickling down my cheek. We have this king-size bed, and it is usually so comfy. However, at this moment, it feels like a bed made of nails. I miss how wonderful it feels to have James in bed behind me. Our bodies fit against each other in a perfect pair.

            During the night, James does visit the apartment. I am long asleep, curled up in the blankets of the bed, as he softly steps through the front door. He is not the elegant and perfect image. His suit doesn’t look the same pressed and ordered it usually is. Even his tie isn’t looped around his neck and tied straight; it hangs loose and uneven. He creeps into the bedroom as if he is a specter. His eyes look weary and strained. Could he have been crying for hours maybe? I don’t know. He stands above me for a moment, the longest moment it seems, before silently shuffles around the bedroom, in the closet and in the bathroom. He hangs his head low, and looks like he is going to cry. Is he all out of tears? Before long, the apartment is empty except for me.

            The alarm triggers its usual annoying tone at the exact time it has been set to for eternity.

James is nowhere to be seen. I awaken, and I look around the apartment. It is exactly how I left it yesterday. I stagger from the bed, and go into the bathroom to take a shower. At first, I didn’t notice it, but just as I am about to step in the shower, I see something out of the corner of my eye. On the countertop are a small envelope and the day’s newspaper. I step up to the counter, and to my surprise, it is wet. I lift up the envelope and open it while my eyes glance over the countertop. I catch a glimpse at the headline in the newspaper when I pull out the letter.

            I open the letter and start to read. My facial expressions fill the mirror. James has an interesting way with words. At first, I suspect it is a letter full of hateful remarks about how I’m a cheating bitch, maybe rightfully so, but I am wrong. James keeps it rather simple and short. He talks about how he loves me and tries to give everything he can for me. He says he sacrifices all his deepest wishes for me so he can pamper me like the goddess that I am. I can hear his voice in my head as I read. The letter ends with him saying he will be home later to end all our troubles. What does he mean? I shake my head and set the letter down. How could I have been so stupid?

            I look deep into the mirror. I wish I am not the hallow girl I have become. Continuing to stare into the mirror, I step into the shower and begin to wash. I can see my figure behind curtain in the reflection. I stare at it, thinking how thickheaded I am. The letter lies on the counter, tormenting me. It reminds me of a similar letter, but one more romantic and good.

 

            “Your skin is a gentle meadow where each individual follicle of hair is a blade of grass that begs to be parted as my hand moves across your skin like a curious hare. Each curve of your voluptuous frame is a magnificent mountain range, and my lips are the adventurous climbers that are destined to conquer each ridge. Every time you speak, your words are a sweet elixir for my ears to drink. I am jealous of each particle of cloth that hugs your body when it should be my arms!” I read out loud.

            “Do you like it?” James asked.

            “Mmmmhmmm….. I love it.”

            “I want you to know how much I love you.”

            I giggled as he took my hands in his. “Oh really now?”

            “Oh yes. You are my world hummingbird. If I could, I would climb up to the stars, and pick you the brightest ones.”

            I leaned in to him and kissed him gently on the lips. The scene was perfect. He said he wanted to dedicate the night to me. He took me to the restaurant of my choice – sadly for him the most expensive one in town – and bought me a dinner meant for a princess. I was so happy. I even got to laugh at James when he got jealous at the waiter for hitting on me. He got so irate sometimes when other men looked at me. How foolish he was. He was so in love with me, and that proved it. The night couldn’t be any better.

            “Hummingbird…” James started.

            “Yes?”

            “There has been something I have wanted to ask you for so long…”

            I looked deep into his eyes. I knew what he wanted to ask.

            “Over these two years, we have been through it all hon. We have been to heaven, to hell, and to every land in between. I give you all I can my love. I give you my soul, my heart, and my flesh. You are my goddess; my angel; my warrior woman.”

            I laugh under my breath. He had such a way of going overboard when dealing with his emotions.

            “I am totally yours hon. I want to give you the world if you will have it. I want to give you all of me, if you will have it. I want to be with you forever, if you’ll have me.”

            “Oh James… Can’t you just ask one question? You always have to pamper me with your words and actions.” I rubbed his hand against my cheek. “I do love it though. I love it how you serenade me like a goddess.”

            “Babe, I don’t want you to ever feel like I don’t love you. I am your humble servant; your humble servant to kiss your feet and to be your slave. I love you that much.”

            “I love you too James, with all my heart.”

            “Will you marry me?”

           

            I wait all day for James to come home. Time slowly passes in the apartment, and it is excruciating. I grow restless. I try to plan out the confrontation between us. How mad will he be? How strong should I be about bringing up the point that he has abandoned me and that is why I have turned to Christopher? Should I beg for forgiveness? Should I make a stand for a change? I don’t want to lose him, but things can’t remain the same. Damn it. I love James. I love James, not Christopher. If I have to give up everything – the whips, chains, everything – then so be it. James is more important. He’s always been there, and always will be there. I was wrong; I should have gone to James first.

            Morning turns to afternoon, and then afternoon turns to night. Still there is no James. I cook myself some dinner, and still there is no James. I lie down in bed, and curl up alone again. I don’t want another night to sleep alone, but it looks like I am in for one. Suddenly, the front door opens, and James walks in. I move to the doorway and look at him. He drops his suitcase, and looks in my direction. He is hunched over, his eyelids are dark, and his face has a growing layer of hair across it. It looks like he hasn’t slept for at least a day.

            “Hey…” I softly say from the doorway. “You’re home.”

            “Had to stay late and finish up a contract.” James says from the kitchen as he gets a beer out of the fridge.

            “Is that all you care about anymore?”

            “What do you mean?”

            “All you seem to care about is your stupid job.”

            I don’t know why I’m starting so aggressive. Maybe it’s best to get all the anger out first?

            “That’s not all I care about.”

            “Well enlighten me then. Because to me, I’m just some girl you come home to. We used to be so close, so in love. And now it seems that all you care about is your job.”

            “I care about giving you everything your heart desires. That’s the only real thing I care about.” He sips the beer.

            “Well you aren’t. I want you. I have always wanted you.”

            He stands there, looking grimly at the fridge. I watch as he slowly lowers his head, and presses it up against the fridge. Before he closes his eyes, I notice him staring at the picture of us on the fridge. It was taken the night he proposed to me.

            “All I have ever wanted was to serve you with all my heart and soul. You are my hummingbird. I’d die for you.”

            “James… I love you. I really do. But you have never been around for so long. It is like you are a ghost haunting me. You are just a shell of the man I fell in love with.”

            I walk away from him and tumble into the bed. “That is why I went to Christopher. I need to feel loved, I need the attention.”

            “I know hummingbird… I know… You want me to be Romero… the romantic Romero.” He says from the kitchen. “I don’t know what to say… I try so hard to give you a life of luxury. I love you with all my heart hon. I always have, always will. I don’t want any other man to have you. You have always been my only love, my soulmate. If you left me for another man…I’d feel lost. I’d be nothing. You are my whole world hummingbird…”

            I wish I can hold him as he speaks. I want to wrap my arms around him so badly. I should not be in the bed.

            “What was that?” I say, curled up in the bed in tears.

            He slowly staggers into the bedroom, and stands next to the bed. I look up at him from the bed. “What do you want from me darling?”

            “I’m tired. I’ve been waiting for you all day, all night. Let’s just go to bed. We can finish this in the morning.”

            “If that is what you wish hummingbird.”

            “Goodnight James.” I turn away from him and close my eyes.

            “Goodnight Rosaline.”

            That didn’t go well, but I think a night to sleep it over will be good for both of us. The morning will be better to handle this.

            He stands above me for a long while, until I’m asleep. My back is turned to him, but that doesn’t matter to him. Tears stream from his eyes. Each one trickles down his cheek, down through is unshaven facial hair, and plummets off his chin to the floor below. I am fast asleep before he finally moves again. He drinks the rest of his beer, and goes into the kitchen. His steps are slow; it is as if he is walking through mud. After a few moments, he returns to the bedroom with his suitcase. He steps into the bathroom quietly. Gently, he opens his suitcase, and starts removing its contents. There is a black shiny outfit with metal chains, sticking out of his suitcase. There is also a glimpse of a bottle of some kind, and a handkerchief. What does he have planned? What are you going to do James?

            He walks into the room with both the bottle and handkerchief in hand. He steps around the bed, and stops in front of me. More tears trickle down his face. He leans in and gives me a gentle kiss on my forehead. It isn’t enough to disturb my slumber. What are you doing love? He gently places the handkerchief over my mouth and nose. He holds it here for a while, not hard enough to smother me, but close enough for me to inhale it all. What the hell are you doing James?

            He gives my cheek a rub, but I am unresponsive. “I’m sorry Rosaline… I love you so much… I can’t lose you to another man. Nobody else can have you.”

            He brings in his suitcase, and puts the bottle and handkerchief away. All my bondage gear is in the suitcase. Damn-it James, don’t do it. He snaps it shut, and looks at me. He shakes his head, and moves next to me. His hands move under me, and he lifts me from the bed. I am limp, but still breathing. He lays me over his shoulder, and grabs his suitcase. I am defenseless. He marches to the front door, but turns back for a second. He looks in my direction for a moment, but then leaves. After a while, he returns home, without me, and falls asleep.

            The alarm triggers its usual annoying tone at the exact time it has been set to for eternity. James awakens, and the pretty blueness of his eyes is on full display again. He stretches out on the bed in every direction. He rolls onto my side of the bed, and he feels the depression I have left there in the bed. It might even be a little warm still because I was laying there for much of the night. After a few more moments of groan-filled stretching, he staggers out of bed and goes into the kitchen. I follow him. He picks up his newspaper, and starts to read it at the table. He sighs heavily before turning the page. My picture is in the paper. It is an older picture of me, but I still look the same I did before. There is a story under it:

            James lets out a heavy sigh and leaves the kitchen for the bathroom. He tosses the paper into the corner of the countertop, and steps into the shower. The water begins to fall from the showerhead, and James begins to wash. Steam starts to perspire on the mirror. Mist expands on the mirror until only the bottom remains clear. The newspaper reflects in the mirror to me. The words are reflected back, and are readable. I read them, and become shocked. The mist fills the mirror fully, blocking the reflection. I fill with dread, my heart stops, and I lose all feeling. The bastard has killed me. The son-of-a-bitch killed me. I thought it was going to be ok. I thought the morning would fix everything. Why? Where? When? How? What the fuck? James, how could you?

            Everything goes black and silent. There is no feeling; no emotion; no memory.

 

            The alarm triggers its usual annoying tone at the exact time it has been set to for eternity. It is always the same blaring noise. It always seemed to be at the precise moment in time when it was most inconvenient for me. The buzzer would continually interrupt some fantasy I was living whilst in a dream. I could have been in the grasp of a handsome white knight. Perhaps my prince-charming had finally conquered the evil king and rescued me, the entrapped princess. None of that matters now though. The bothersome tone disrupts my slumber. There is a bright side to the agonist clamor though. It means my lover awakens.

            It doesn’t matter which side either of us fell asleep on; our eyes always open to each other’s face. My eyes flutter open to his. It is as if I can look deep into his eyes and see his soul. Oh my how sweet and innocent I feel when I look deep into his orbs. The blueness of his eyes is like catching a glimpse at the magnificent ocean, the clear pristine water at the beach perhaps, at the perfect moment of relaxation and romance. How wonderful it feels when he gazes upon me. We are just a couple of young lovebirds with our souls entwined in bliss. It is his eyes that attract me to him. I adore those perfect, passionate, loving eyes of his. Oh James, I love you.

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How the Tempest Came

The pitter-patter of the rain echoes off the walls of my bedroom. The steady beat of the falling tears, splashing onto the tin roof, encompasses me – besieges me. I sit here on the edge of my bed, alone. My only company – my companionship if you will – is the sinister darkness of my ambiance. A tempest resonates outside, and the grand flashes of lightning illuminate my gloomy cell for instants at a time.

My head feels heavy – overburdened with nightmarish rationales. It limply hangs from my neck as if it is still barely attached to my form. The connection remains, but has the control been lost? I gaze downward in a meditative-like trance. Another flash lights the room. My arms rest on my thighs, and my palms are open and turned upward toward my drooping face. My watery eyes itch; it is an irritation from my soul. A tear collects in my eyelashes; entrapped in the protective barricade for the portals of the soul.

My reddening eyes – my distressed portals – strain from the overwhelming pressure; the tear plummets into the shadows. In the dimness, the tear splashes onto one of my palms. A second starts its descent toward my mittens of destruction. There is another instant of illumination; I perceive bloody hands. The blood – the sanguine liquor – is still wet and warm. It drips from my fingers to the floor. The second tear lands unnoticed, joining the blood that covers my appendages for love and hate. Darkness engulfs the chamber once again. The pitter-patter of the rain echoes off the walls of my bedroom. Everything slowly quiets to a hush – a silence fit for a tomb.

*****

“Daddy… I’m scared… I want Momma…”

I stood in the doorway of my baby girl’s – daddy’s little princess’s – room. All her Barbie dolls, teddy bears, and other trinkets of blissful childhood innocence were scattered throughout her room. The rain – a restless barrage of sorrow – assaulted the roof, and the wind howled and bellowed against her window. Just a simple plate of glass shielded us from the true feelings of the tempest’s misery. With a flash of lightning, I was enveloped in pink wallpaper and Barbie posters. My eyes scanned her room – her sanctuary. They eventually made their way up to her cradle and across the pink bedspread. Another flash and I saw all I needed.

There was my girl – the better parts of my essence – all covered up in her blanket. Her little fingers held onto her chainmail tight, and she had it up so it was just under her chin. Her long brown locks stretched down around her shoulders and over the blanket. Her eyes – those sweet green eyes – were wide with fright. Darkness returned, but just as quickly as the shadows spread, flash! Only a covered, shivering, innocent silhouette remained in the bed.

“Where is momma? I want to be with momma…”

She missed her mother Jennifer terribly. I used to call my angel – my goddess – Jenni. But Jenni wasn’t with us anymore; hasn’t been for many sad, lonesome nights. She was off in a better place – a heavenly bliss I myself will never experience. She was taken from me; more like stolen. Abandonment in the gutters of humanity was not fitting – not acceptable – for a princess.

“It will be ok baby girl… Daddy will make it all better…,” I told her in the softest, most certain voice a father could. “I’ll be right back.”

My footsteps echoed throughout the apartment as I marched down the corridor. My feet felt heavy – more resigned – for each step bellowed from the wood floor. My room was the destination; it would be the commencement – even the conclusion – of Fate’s transgression this eve. Without reflection or a second consideration, I stood solemnly at my dresser. My fingers twitched – a hesitation. I opened the top drawer. No manner of concealment would prevent my search. My hand – my wand of force – slithered through the layers of garments with a cool precision. Cold metal excited the nerve-endings of my finger tips. I had what I was looking for.

By wrapping my fingers around the smooth furnish of the handle like a serpent around its prey, the connection – the amalgamation of sad will and definitive force – was complete. I exhumed the pistol from its supposedly final resting place. I raised it above me like a chalice – a Holy Grail of destruction. A flash of lightning; the gun glowed with an authority of domination. Darkness returned.

The firearm suddenly felt too heavy – too encompassed with historic damnation – to carry. It was lowered downward until it hung limply at my side; the bond was still intact. Muscle memory took over. We, the armament and I, had been at this point before. The skeletons of the past – the inner demons of the blackest part of the soul – were afoot once more. I eerily stalk the demons toward the familiar place. The thunder – the tempest’s groans of agony – rang through the corridor. It was an effective covering – a murderous accessory – for my footsteps and expedition down the hall.

Wooden panels, the tiles of lumber, changed to soft, fuzzy, pink carpet. There was no disturbance – nothing had changed – since the heartbeats that had previously transpired in this domicile. My little princess was still where I had left her: in the safety of her blanket-made cocoon. I slipped my hand behind my back; the gun, the purveyor of disheartening eradication, was hidden from my girl’s eyes. Slowly – with unhurried dedication – I traipsed the distance between us. I knelt down, on one knee, at the side of her bed. My fingers – soothing to the touch – combed their way through her hair.

“Daddy?”

“Yes sweetie?”

“I’m scared…,” she whimpered; it was a tender shedding of tears.

“I know you are hon… but you have to be strong for daddy.”

My girl gazed upward to me; there was confusion – innocent uncertainty – in her eyes.

“I can’t daddy… I wan–”

The flash of thunder and instant roar of thunder cut her off; she bawled in terror.

“Shhhh…. It will be okay my little princess. The storm won’t hurt you sweetie.”

I pressed down the hammer.

“It will all be over soon…”

I knew – I prayed – that this was for the best for her.

“I want momma…”

My finger traced the curve and cold metal of the trigger.

“I know you do love… I know…”

She deserved to be in a better place – an existence partaking that of a princess.

“Just go back to sleep… It will be all better in the morning.”

I shut my girl’s portals with the softest compassion I could harness; there would be no judgment from her soul. My sweet baby did what she was told. She settled into her shelter – her protective barrier from the evils of the world. Slumber’s sweet persuasion hopefully enveloped her. One final glance of her radiant purity and beauty was all my soul could partake – could consume like a sweet liquor.

The thunder – the tempest’s groans of agony – echoed. It was an effective covering – a murderous accessory. The inner demons of the blackest part of the soul were afoot once more. There was no stopping Fate’s transgression this eve. No need for reflection or a second consideration. The steady beat of the falling tears encompasses me – besieges me. My eyes, reddening under heartbroken strain, ran down the barrel while I took aim – steadfast and sure of the exploitation. The feel of cold steel – the icy sickle of Death – empowered the tiniest of nerves and silenced the loudest of adversaries. The gun – the contrivance of final resolution – fired.

A flash shrouded the room in light. The pistol kicked in my hand; my fingers lost their grip on it. Rumbling drums of shook the residence. The crack of the shot – the explosion of terror – rang through the house; followed by the grim thump of the pistol crashing to the wood floor. I prayed – begged – that the temptress outside, my sweet collaborator, did her part in covering my exploitation. The deed was done. And so, the memoir of the past, tragic transgression – the haunting of such destruction to such sweet innocence – was recited to my soul.

I still remembered – recalled every tragic detail – of the horrific episode. She sat there, looking like her angelic self as always, in her bed. Her eyes were brimming with trust; with faith; with hope. I never doubted – never mistrusted – her resolve in me. Her green eyes – her emerald gems – never peered away from my own; not even her luscious, brunette locks – the locks I’d run my fingers through every night before bed – could thwart her gaze. Even when the gun, that bludgeon of savage temperament, was pressed against her brow, I knew her love – her undeserving adoration – for me would never hinder.

I was powerless – void of enough resolve – to stop the incident. I was but a mere mortal; a pitiful excuse of a man. All my strength – my total allegiance to my deity – turned to icy stone as if she was not the goddess at all, but Medusa. Every muscle, every nerve, was frozen. The destructive blizzard was not caused by a seeping repugnance by my doppelganger, but by sheer terror and panic. There were no words that could illustrate the devastation that ensued. Just a flash; a flash was the only description I could conjure.

She was gone – stolen from me – just like that. No manner of existence, no manner of life, was complete without my angel. A storm, a tempest of melancholy, brewed. Tears – the rain of my heartbreaking – fell every eve. I was no longer a part of humanity. There was no resurgence – no resurrection – from the plummet. Such an act of self-obliteration – the abolition of my goddess by her own will – destroyed the soul; it only left a hollow frame of flesh behind. Why Jenni – my angel, my goddess – why did you do it?

*****

The pitter-patter of the rain echoes off the walls of my bedroom. The steady beat of the falling tears, splashing onto the tin roof, encompasses me – besieges me. I sit here on the edge of my bed, alone. My only company – my companionship if you will – is the sinister darkness of my ambiance. A tempest resonates outside, and the grand flashes of lightning illuminate my gloomy cell – my entombment – for instants at a time.

The blood – the sanguine liquor – is still wet and warm. It drips from my fingers to the floor. The second tear lands unnoticed, joining the blood that covers my appendages for love and hate. The pitter-patter of the rain echoes off the walls of my bedroom. My eyes slide to a close. I feel weak; my last strength – my ending essence – drains. Everything slowly quiets to a hush – a silence fit for a tomb.

“I love you Daddy…”

I stir awake. Slowly, I gaze forward. My girl, my princess, stands, cuddling her teddy bear in her pink pajamas, at my door. A tear – an innocent tear – trickles down her cheek as she stares toward me. Back down I gaze. The blood – and my sad soul – soaks through my shirt from the bullet hole, the single wound, in my chest, above the heart.

“I love you too baby girl…,” I am able to let out in a soft sigh. “I’m sorry…”

There is a flash – a single flicker of illumination. Then, there is only darkness. No echoing rumble follows; only a single beat – a singular pulsation. It’s quiet now. Everything is numb; everything is silent. Only a hollow form – a bare urn – of flesh remains. A storm, a tempest of despondency, brews. Oh how the tempest came.

Jun 01, 20112 notes
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